Is this Love towards you?

What have I done?

Why did I get attached to you?

I should have known the consequences of doing such

But why did I choose you when I have many choices of having peace life in front of me

Is it true that  we are destined together

NO! It shouldn't be that way!

I don't deserve such nice person who dare to care for anyone

You are brave to face anything ..

But me.. I'm still afraid of this pathetic life of mine

I wish I could just turn and run away when you confront me

Knowing that you will never be there to make me smile

I have learnt my lesson, I'm not gonna repeat it again

You shouldn't lean on me for support

Because.. I have lost my way

I'm trying to find myself through your eyes and ways

What am I to do if you find out all of the fake truth?

It's difficult to always keep on my mask and act

When the real inner me wants somebody to notice

I just want someone who accept me for who I am

So that I could set my soul free of abuse

I just wanna let you walk away without guilt of my stupidity

But you didn' t wanna leave

At the peak of our story there will be a finger pointing at me

Saying that he regrets the times with me

Imagination such as that breaks the heart till the core

Wish there was a glue to stick it back together

Teenage is driven crazy towards love

Sweet talk and flirts are just the symptoms of it

Am I to trust it or just brush this pointless view away?

Angel's eyes

I would love to own a person with natural magic

He who just lights my world with just a stare and a smile

The second your eyes found mine

I realize that God have answered my prayer and gave me a sign

I  couldn't sense what's going on in your mind

But I swear I have never seen your kind

I respect you for being yourself

I wish there was a history of you on the bookshelf

Don't try to leave me even for a dare

Even if you do I will never despair

Seeking your soul where the crowd hold

For the truth that never have been told

The way you treat me around your friends makes me inarticulate

It never fail to create an emotion conflate

You made me laugh, you made me shy

Your love is something worth to cry

I will never question your love being true or not

Your love is my food of thoughts

There are tons of stuffs my heart wants to say

Darling, I love you and there's no other way

The little moments that I spent with you

I will cherish my whole life and believe me it is true
It all started out with a close friendship and ended up with hate

Within a snap of two finger, we fell in love and recreated fate

This isn't a crush,habit nor lust

Its a bond of trust that will recover my past..

My Agony

I'm solid as flesh can be

My feeling for you are rooted deep into the ground

Even the future wouldn't give us the permission to live together ...

I'll be waiting

You told me to trust you and love you..

I did and I still am, I never regret it even once..

You showed me how to love and made me feel loved

I will treasure it till I die

But why does this pain and silence in me doesn't fade..?

It hurts when I couldn't be there when you need me...

I wanted to tell you` everything I could

But.. Something is stopping me from saying it..

Why am I afraid to be around you sometimes?

Life goes on in a Crazy Path

Everyone asked me to keep my head up and face it with a strong heart

The thing is.. How is that so?

Sometimes I feel like letting go the rope I held..

I hope someone would take my hand and say don't give up now

Please forgive me for what I've done

I'm holding tight to your heart.. please don't run away..

I'm done with fake smiles and  happiness

I can't act anymore, I feel empty

I looked at him, with sorrow dwelling inside

He sensed my hurt and tried to help

But I'm just not ready to surrender to you..

My Diary..

Dear Diary,

Will this relationship lasts till the end of our fortune ?

Or

Will death bring us apart?

I'm not willing to let him go no matter what happen

Why did my heart insist on loving you 

after numerous people said that this wont be long?

I have never experience this weird feeling 

Mixture of abandon, sorrow, humor, and laughter..

I who never wake from bad or good dreams

After falling for you I'm going through many sleepless nights

I tried to put down your picture and get some sleep

But it's hard to fight the desire of being with you

Everything I do reminds me of you

I tend to think about you more than myself

Why is that dear Diary?

Why is love so different depending where I am?

With my Charming, love felt Sweet like sugar

When I'm far away, Love is Suffocating and Suffering..

You're the song I mumble on the way to a destination

Ill take a step back without looking at the edge of the skyscraper 

If you say I'm gonna be safe when I reach the ground

Are you willing to be with me darling? 

Cause If you wanna leave sooner or later do it now

Because I don't know if I could Withstand the pain after its too late...

Love Satisfies

Should I be happy that I love you Or should I be sad because that's all I could give?
When we first met, I didn't know you would be so important to me
I miss you being by my side
I've drew my heart on your hand so it could remind you of me
I'm hurt to watch you loving me like no other
I didn't forgive you because I was weak
I forgave because I know you wouldn't repeat it again
Love while you can before it's too late for that person to realize
There are no beauty without make up
There will never be love without pain
When love is great, you'll feel like you're on top of the world
When love is gone, you'll feel buried deep down the earth where no one could find you
Will your love and care fade off like worn out crayon colors?
The admiration I saw within your eyes was pure the day we met
It now turned out to be something that was never known for centuries
I wish my dark days would return.. where the time I believed love was crap and nothing more than the white sand on the beach
Where is my black beauty, that stole my heart in a split of a second?
There are thousand running through my head that I couldn't express
Words you say.. have been my inspiration
Bring me with you when you walk in the rain
Happiness or Sorrow will you share it with me?
I promise I wouldn't let you to face it alone..

Hidden Happiness..

I have happiness that I enjoy even when you're far away

The times I look at you when you're not aware of it

The smiles that I stole from you

The beautiful mornings that I walked alone thinking about you

The moment you get excited when you talk to me

Every minute is my history in life

Sad or Happy I know I will be alive

The way you speak, look, smell and think

I wish I could make it mine

They are something that should keep throughout my journey

Why do make me go crazy?

Every minute and every second its like I'm possessed by someone

I don't feel myself anymore since I'm here to stay with you

One touch of your finger on me..

Makes me fall for you all over again

I tried to avoid it but I don't dare because I love the feeling of it

I was so self-conscious and arrogant

You made me feel for others and become more empathy

I use to speak quietly in my mind

You have break in to shatter my silence

You have created havoc and war in my dreams

Even though it sounds silly I want this moment to last forever..

Only Yours...

The way you look at me
Never once fail to give me adrenaline through my nerves
First of all I wanted to get away
But now I can't seem to walk away
I was alone open to be wounded by rumors
Now I feel protected and free to be who I really am
With you by my side I can reach the night sky and grab the moon
When I'm down you always knew what to do or say
That made me feel better in every way
As long as you're here with me
I trust that I'll have my pieces of smile attached
I've tried to run as far as I could
But wherever I run you'll always be there to stop me
I don't know whether I should shatter like glass or be of joy
Though I was never your Juliet, You have always been my Romeo
Only with you I have heaven on Earth
No words can express how I feel about you
I am afraid to admit it when you're looking at me
So all I can say is Be Mine

I don't care what people say I still love you..

There's a rose in my garden of memories

That grows because of you,

Whenever my heart wanders there

Then that rose blooms anew,

Sure, and may there be a road before you and it bordered with roses

The likes of which have never been smelt or seen before

For the warm and fine color and the great sweetness that is on them..

In my Heart..

You don't have to be perfect to belong,

You don't have to know all the answers or always know the right thing to say,

You can climb the highest mountain if you want,

Quitely imagine that you might bring me somewhere with you someday,

You can take chances or take safety nets, make miracles or make mistakes,

You don't have to be composed at all hours to be strong here,

You don't have to be bold or certain to be brave,

You don't have to have all the answers here,

Or even know who you want to be ..

Just take my hand And rest your heart and stay awhile with me

This is my Brand new Love life

And remember baby.. I will Always Love You  

Something about you..

Let's just say he was the best part of me

I felt beautiful because of him

I had hope of living because of him

I wanted to go on with my vain because he was here

I lost my heart to you

No matter what you do with it I can never have it back

I felt a tingle of heat whenever I think about you

The weird way of speaking

Funny way of approach

Everything about you is different and special

People may speak thousands of you

Your lips can't lie for who you are

I love the way you spin your book on your finger

the way you get mad at yourself

You are an irreplaceable relation to me

I love you and I ain't afraid to say it

I will never Forget you ..

I don't wanna take another step in front

Because I know you will never be there for me if I tripped,

I never want to move on with my life

Your touch, your smile, and your eyes are still burning fresh in my mind,

I wanna fall back into your trap

the time you use to tell me how pretty I look everyday even it was a lie,

I love the way you use to hold my hand

Warm, Love and Care indulge in it that makes nothing in comparison,

I wanna turn the clock back in the moment you said 'I'm love you'

The beautiful moment in the garden where you voice out your feeling,

I wanna feel your fingers on my cheek

Soft and unique that makes me feel myself,

Look at me and say what you see..

Gimme a smile that remains as a memory in the deep abyss..

I will walk alone under the shadow with our experiences together..

Your gentleness, forgiveness and love will always be my guide through the darkness..

No One !

Do you remember the time you used to put your hand on my head?
I miss those moment where our skin came in contact
I love those warm vibes of care and love,
I wonder how you do it?
With a glance my hurtful mind and heart tend to mend all over again,
If there were two options lay infront of me..
First, a happy life with a person who would never even hurt you once...
Second, a average life with a person who hurts and wipes your tear stained face..
I would go for the second option,
Why?
Because without hurt.. they will be no understanding and love..
And I know he wont be there to to watch me cry all by myself,
He will be there to make me smile before my tears get dry..
I don't have reasons why I love him?
But I just love him for his simplicity and Him being who he is,
You made me fight through all my pains,
You made me start all over again,
You tutored me to learn thing I have yet gained ,
And I believe That nothing can move my heart from where it is now..
I Love You and There will be No one Stealing that away from me !

Look at me !

Can't you see the tears  in my eyes ?

Why are you making me cry? 

I feel so hurt by the words you say

I think it's better you take a knife and push it through my heart,

I tried to help you but you didn't accept it 

But you are telling me stories that make me regret leaving you,

Don't you realize I don't love you anymore

How do you want me to be with you when I don't love you?

That's like a puppet without a owner

Only the owner knows how to make the puppet move with life

You are someone who just wanna keep it for showcase,

I tried not to break down but you are tearing me into pieces

I cannot take it anymore,

I should learn how to stand up for myself

But there goes again.. You make me fall like I was on the 20th floor,

Threatening me that my current love will not last long

Even if it does or not I will be by his side to comfort him not like what have you done..